‘Hard to Swallow, Easy to Digest’ & ‘Oversoul’ by Larisa Lugojan

Mixed Media on Canvas
150cmx160cm
2014


All the variables of worst and greatest.
Let's feel it all, then. As a fraction, 
to the Whole, fuck you!
First time ever that I acknowledged myself as the Whole and the None.
I'm the head and I'm the headache. I'm the feeler and the feeling. I am each and every fuckin one.
I'm the noise and harmony. I am the saliva I wanna spit, the person who wants to spit, and the one
who acknowledges that this thing wants to fuckin spit. I am the one who writes about the one
who acknowledges the person who wants to spit. I am the tremble in my foot, the muscle it wants
to move, the comfort innit. The blood, the thought, the silence.
The howl it camouflages
The smileyeyes
The all-lover. The decision-hater.
Do you?
Do you really hate decisions?
Nah. 'Cos I said already I am all-loving. I love disruptions. Hard to swallow, but nice to digest.
Overcooked lamb. Clouded beautiful day. Prison by choice. Fasting when famished. Honestly
corrupted. Another line, another lifetime. Passing near the church as a sinner. And feeling it till the kernel of your bones. Decisions that impact the lives of others. Responsibility. Accountability.
Honor.
What honor?
I need 3 more lives until honor.
May we Find it in our collective dreams.